It’s amazing how God relentlessly pursues us. I am quite aware of how undeserving I am of Gods love and mercy over my life. I know that I couldn’t earn Gods grace with even my best of works. Ephesians 2:8 says it best “For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God.” When I take time to think about all that God has done in my life, it still amazes me how faithful He is, even when I’m not. Who God is isn’t based off how I behave. I can be a mess and God will still be on His throne in holiness. I can make bad choices and God will still continue to turn them all around for His purpose. Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” It’s NOT fair. God’s Love for us isn’t fair, because if it was then we would all be in Hell. All of us, even those who think they are some upstanding citizen that does everything right and doesn’t make mistakes. God says in Romans 3:10 “There is no one righteous, not even one.” It’s easy to fall into the lies of the enemy that say “your not good enough.” or “You make too many mistakes.” The truth is that we all make mistakes and none of us are good enough to do His will, but He delights in making something out of nothing. If God has a purpose for your life it’s going to be fulfilled. Just like He changed Saul’s name to Paul, from murderer to apostle. He can change your name too. The devil likes to call us by our sin, but God calls us by our true identity in Him. Every day I struggle to believe I am who God calls me because every day I fall short of His glory. I’m trying to put on my eyes of faith and look into the mirror and see the warrior that God called me to be and not the shy, passive person staring back at me. I’m trying to see the prayer warrior who when she opens her mouth and says Jesus, demons flee and chains break and not the girl who is too tired to pray or too lazy to pray. I’ve came to a place in my life where God is making me uncomfortable with where I am. He doesn’t want me satisfied with where I am because He still has more for me. I’m desperate for Gods presence, for His word, for His glory because that’s where He wants me to dwell. If you are in a place of being unsatisfied today then God is calling you deeper into His word. God is calling you to sacrifice more time. God is calling you to start being an obedient vessel. It doesn’t matter what it looks like or sounds like to people around you. Isaiah 43:19 “See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” It doesn’t matter if people don’t listen to you or believe what you say, they didn’t believe Jesus either so how much more do you expect people to hear what you have to say. Trust in the Lord because when others see what God is doing in your life they will follow your lead and want what you have. There is a spiritual war going on and the devil wants us to believe we are defeated and there is no hope, but God’s word says in Deuteronomy 20:4 “For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” So shake off the feeling of defeat and fight the good fight. If I can do it so can the next person because it isn’t with our own strength, but with the strength of our God. No matter how badly I want to quit at times God always ignites a passion inside me to press forward. He reminds me of His plans and purpose. He sees the depths of our hearts and knows our innermost thoughts. He pays attention to every little detail of our lives and protects us everywhere we go. It’s a comforting feeling knowing that the God who created heaven and earth also created me and cares for me. I can never give up on God because He will never give up on me.